Clay's Place

Baby!

2010-11-04T08:14:00.004-06:00

Been a long break from blogs. However, I have wonderful news to share!

My wonderful girlfriend gave birth to my beautiful daughter. Aynslee weighed in at 8lbs 4.5 oz and was 18.75" long. She is at home and both baby and mommy are doing well.

Here is a picture of my little angel being all serious. More to come!

Windows 7

2009-08-22T19:32:00.001-05:00

I have been using Windows 7 at work now for quite some time. I must say, I have never been so exicted about an operating system... ever.

I have been using the OS off and on since beta. And now I use it full time at the office and just recently on my home computer. I have to say, I am still amazed at how solid the OS is.

For those who didnt get their free download in before the deadline, shame on you. You are going to lose out on a very fantastic thing.

The sun will come out afterall

2009-05-20T19:44:00.002-05:00

After talking long and hard with my uncle... I gathered my thoughts and finally said all the things I needed to get haley back to me. We both realized what we needed to do and we wanted to give it a try. After talking for a VERY LONG time, we came to our senses and got everything squared away.

It won't be easy still, we both have to be ready to work our butts off to make this work. I am just glad we get the chance to say we did everything that we could to make it work. but we have our goals and we are well aware of whats in store. Lets just hope for the best.

Work related... it sucks right now. Tons of crap going down and its become stressful as all can be. However, I think the next week will slow down again and I can return to normal work. But we will see.

Fun weekend yet... and why?

2009-05-17T17:44:00.003-05:00

Spent the weekend with my uncle playing games and visiting his work. It got my mind off of the recent events... sort of. Everything I do I have attached to her. It makes doing everyday tasks very hard and reminds me of the pain she is causing me. I started my job when i started my life with her. Coming home from work to find her ready to eat dinner, or watch tv. It really sucks.

I keep thinking of how someone can just give up on a something that was so special and something we have worked so hard for. It really does hurt more and more as the days go on. But I keep trying to think that she is the one making the mistake and I tried everything I could. But there is still some doubt in my mind that I did something to cause this. Or maybe it was something I didnt do.

The worst part of it all... we wont ever know what could have been cause she left me to go to live with her parents in Washington. I really hate it, knowing you can never try again, knowing there is no chance. Rather I wanted it or not, there is no chance.

I have stopped myself from thinking the three words, saying i miss her, but just cause I dont say them doesnt mean they arent in my mind. It is a terrible thing to try to forget the feelings. All the time we spent together. And forget that she just gave up on me and even more, us. But why... why?

Awww crap....

2009-05-16T19:20:00.003-05:00

So it has been far too long for an update. Working on writing more. Now for the updates.

My fiance left me on Mother's Day last week. I have been handling fairly well minus the whole love of my life leaving me to suffer while she goes off to live with her parents.... yeah... Either way, shes gone now, for good. But I am still pulling through. I have been expressing my feelings through song on my mysapce page. It is working for me pretty well.

Trying to find a new place to live cause I hate going home to be reminded that she broke my heart and wrecked me there. I'm not making that much head way cause I have been grieving and playing games. Either way, trying to find a small place above a building downtown. I have always wanted to do it but could never get away with it before. So I think I am going to try to do it now.

Really not having the greatest time in the world. She really did tear me apart. I still don't understand how someone who claims they love you and agree to a marriage would just up and leave without fighting for it. But I did the right thing by not following after her, asking her to stay, cause if I am not worth fighting for... then it's not going to be. One day she'll understand this more, one day she will understand that perfection is unattainable and that you don't put your lover on a pedestal. That is the major reason we failed... she expected way more then anyone can give her. I just hope she realizes this before she puts herself and anyone else through this again.

Signing off now... thanks for all the help from everyone who has given it.

Listen to Alice in Chains - Nutshell to understand my current feelings about the situation.

Holidays.... CRAP!

2008-11-24T23:13:00.001-06:00

With my new found glory of being a phone technician... i get to endure the wonderful task of setting up holiday greetings for every one of our customers. This is a very simple task. However, I feel the customers are going to make it more pain staking then it needs to be. With the growth of the company, and the number of phones systems we have installed around the country, I fear its going to be a very long week ahead of me...

Dang....

2008-11-23T20:50:00.003-06:00

Well, it has been a while yet again...

Things at work are wonderful. The company has made a few changes that I am really enjoying being a part of. Things will be so much better for all of us once things are going smooth and continue to show promise. Also got myself a nice raise! I am very happy with it and very happy where I am right now.

Things with my girlfriend are still very good. We have some rough spots now and then, but nothing we can't overcome. The fact that we take the time to understand these speed bumps and try to work on them, makes me love it even better. I am glad I can share my life with someone who is so wonderful and caring.

Another league has started for Team Fortress 2 at ArsClan.net. We have a ton of things going on and have seen great improvement with the league. ArsLeague.com is officially up and running thanks to turb0z and Delirium. It looks very well and functions just as good. Hit it up if you are looking for a small fun league to play in with friends.

Thanks

The week begins

2008-09-02T20:05:00.001-05:00

After a wonderful weekend of family fun (no fucking drama), the work week has finally begun. It seems like it is going to be a rough one. Haley is working some overnights with the senior care center and will be around just as soon as I head to work. Won't be fun.

I began to play around with my firefox3 addons this evening. Got a few I really needed, a few I was trying, and a few I clicked on because the name was cool. Ok, not really. I did, however, end up getting about 10 add-ons and managed to not clutter my viewing area. No taskbars, toolbars, etc. just nice clean buttons where there was just empty space.

Have a good hump day

Arg.... stealing is bad mmmkay

2008-08-28T23:10:00.002-05:00

I have posted in the past about how life has been good and extra purchases have been easy and justifiable... now its the opposite.

To start, I was robbed Tuesday... Yeah, broke into the house, grabbed my LCD tv (see post below for picture of said lost tv...) and playstation 2. The only part of this that is good, they didn't take the computer and two laptops that were right next to it.

Haley was not home, thank god, and was the one who discovered it when she did arrive. I am happy she wasnt hurt or put in any harms way. She called me asking where i put the tv... to which I was dumbfounded and started to get furious. I left work and rushed home while talking to the police. After 45 minutes, a cop shows up and "investigates"... no prints (until I asked her to), and couldnt lift anything except for one... that will probably be mine...

I had a lead or two, but police never followed up. After searching every pawn shop in town and making calls to bordering state shops, I have given up hope for any type of return.

However, it could be worse. Just glad that Haley is ok, and that there wasnt more gone. However, it has left me somewhat uneasy. I am having a hard time focus at work cause im worried about whats going on at my home. I am not sleeping very well thanks to fear. I am very very BLAH thanks to this event. Just hope it gets better and hope for things to turn back around to where it was a month ago.

Cheers

I love paintball guns!

2008-08-28T21:06:00.001-05:00

Absolutely amazing and beautiful to watch with the high speed camera.

Full story is HERE

HDD Recovered! I can haz dataz

2008-05-07T18:07:00.003-05:00

This is the hard drive that was in Columbia shuttle that crash a few back. The data was recovered from this hunk of metal and trash (or so it would seem). STORY: http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?id=hard-drive-recovered-from-columbia&sc=rss

It is amazing how far we have come in terms of technology. When hard disk drives were only in MB and now we can get TB! Just amazing.

In other news, the new TV is in the budget and in the works of receiving. The 37" Dynex LCD tv has been in the works for a while and has officially been added to my monthly budget. Getting a great deal and even better financing. Can we say, zero interest 18month? Yeah bitches.

Life is Good

2008-05-01T18:28:00.002-05:00

So life has been pretty sweet as of late. The new job is awesome! Got a new desk and work space...

Pretty damn sweet if I may say so myself.

Another great thing that has come into my life is a wonderful woman named Haley. I hate to sound like that little omg myspace emo guy who has to spill the guts. However, this woman is worth every bit of it. She really is just the most wonderful person I have been with. We are pretty serious and have made some pretty serious decisions on how we want things to work. Yes, it is exactly that, work. We both want different things, to do things in different ways. We are both very stubborn as well. However, we are also able to compromise to satisfy each others needs and wants out of this relationship. So, its a big yay and really looking forward to the future with her.(Love ya babe)

I have also begun to quit smoking! No, she didnt make me do it. I did it all by myself. I just decided it was time to stop and save my health and money (MONEY!!!!). Its a little rough, I do cheat from time to time. However, its going very well considering how much I used to smoke. I am down to about 2-4 smokes a day, if any at all. For the most part, its just my nicotine gum and WoW (hehehe).

Hope you enjoyed!

New Life (Job)

2008-03-03T19:36:00.003-06:00

I have had quite a few things come through on the positive side so far this year. I found a temporary job working at a warehouse for a national furniture store. This paid good money and gave plenty of hours. Lets not forget I am able to sleep, hang out, and really have no strict rules other then don't shoot up heroin in the store... perfect. However, I am leaving this heavenly zone to work in the field of my major, network support administration.

Over at ISTT Technologies, I will be starting my career in the IT world. It is entry level and they are working around my schedule at school until graduation. This is wonderful. An 8-5 job with weekends off, works around school schedule, and also decides to give me a pretty decent hourly rate till graduation (then it goes up and possible salary). All it took was a tie for me on the interview (LOL).

Thanks to all who have helped me get here so far. You know who you are.

Two posts one day?

2007-12-08T18:05:00.000-06:00

I thought this would be fun to share with the rest of the gaming community that may or may not read this.

Enjoy the Team Fortress 2 asshattery.

2007-12-08T13:14:00.000-06:00

View more information about Republican Representative from Texas, Ron Paul, here at his official campaign website.

http://www.ronpaul2008.com

Jesus H Christ.

2007-12-06T01:31:00.000-06:00

I return to thee with great stories and stuff to talk about.

First off, I have not been well lately. Going through a bit of personal downfall which includes the lack of employment and the hard task of finding a job that works with school and such. It sucks but I will return to my feet in that aspect. However, I feel there is a hole inside my little nub head that has yet to be filled. I have not felt myself lately due to this lack of space being utilized. However, I have a group of friend around helping me out and making sure that I will be ok to try again the next day (<3 ashton, chris, and lindsey).

There has been some drama as of late with the core group. In either case, I feel that it is for the best for each individual involved (myself excluded... DAMNIT!). So best of luck to all the parties involved in the drama bomb.

Got a few roomies living with me now. Great group, love being around them and having them around. Except they stole my rubbers.... that they let me have... and have yet to give back... oh the fuck well. <3 either way.

Much more to come now that I am done hiding out and remembered that I have this thing with a few people that enjoy to read it.

Why Hello Again!

2007-07-17T11:35:00.000-05:00

It has been some time since I have posted about myself. All is well (sort of) I have been doing some temp work at a clothing retailer to help pay the bills a little bit. Trying to find more work.

I have been having such an awesome time going to school for my MCSE and NET+ certifications. The instructors are fun and full of knowledge ready to share with the students.

Just signed up for my next classes for the semester. Should be great fun doing Server+, and two implication classes.

Much <3 to all

Having A Fun Time

2007-06-06T19:47:00.000-05:00

Saw this on a random website today. Thought it was just wonderful and cheered me right up.

Enjoy

thesh.info: Lip Dub - Flagpole Sitta

So....

2007-05-21T23:11:00.000-05:00

Today didn't really go down the way I planned. I ended up losing my shitty job. Most would say, "No worries, just another shitty job". This was my income to pay my bills. Thank god I have about two weeks or so to find another job or two. I applied for 6 different jobs as soon as I got home. Decided to have a friend or two come by as I finished to clean the rest of my house up.

Overall, I am not really all torn up or bitter about it. I am more worried about not being able to get a descent job that will pay my bills. Anyone can recommend a job. "Go to McDonalds. I did it when I was in school". Yeah... however, if my job doesn't pay for my bills, I won't be in school. It would be hard to work two jobs with the schedule I have already.

Either way, I am not going to stress or cry or bitch about it. Move on, live life, shit happens. When shit happens, you can either dig and bury it, or roll around in it. I would rather dig and bury it.

Clay

Weekend... sort of

2007-05-21T10:43:00.001-05:00

Morning peoples! This weekend was full of... work. Decided to head home early on Sunday to chill and catch up on some house work. Right before I clocked out (I was literally about to slide my time card) the evil manager from hell stops me and says I needed to be at the gas station for the rest of the night (3 more hours). Little did I know, this ass clown was on his last day and left 10 minutes later... Yeah, can we say I was pissed?

Well, other then work being eventful... I came home Saturday night to some good friends and some messed up times. Sliding down the stairs inside a cardboard box can be fun... as long as you remember to put the pillow under your ass and leaning back (my ass and chest are bruised from the stairs and box). Either way, fun times!

Signing off!

Well hello there

2007-05-18T12:48:00.002-05:00

Hello to all who may read up on my daily adventures.

To start, life is going as usual. Working, going to school, and trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle has started to take a physical and mental turn down the wrong road. However, I have figured out a bit of a way out of this troubling time. Rather I wanted to do it or not, I have found a room mate to occupy the other room in my town house. I have good feelings about this one as she has been a good friend to me for a while now. My only concern is it possibly taking a turn for the worst. I am going to make every effort to not make the same mistake as I did with my first room mate. But that will take time to see how that goes.

I am starting to get a decent sleep schedule set up. Working that temp second job really took a tole on my body. Since that is no longer in my life, I feel a bit of comfort and can move on and get back to a normal lifestyle that won't be so hard on me.

That should do it for the day. See you tomorrow.